Today I went to that’s entertainment and filled my arms with
all those cd’s I only ever wanted 1 song off and didn't want to pay full price
for. And it was when I was listening to one of these songs that I thought wow
this takes me back. Then I thought to what? There was no specific memory; it just
made me think of being a teenager and thinking how awesome a song was. While my
life was rubbish I found happiness in music.
My teenage years were mostly awful. I hated school and hated
myself more, but the one thing I loved was my music, I taught myself guitar and
started writing songs, getting all my feelings out on paper and making
something good out of bad things was such a release.
I’d get really down and just want to go to sleep forever but
then I’d put on a certain couple of albums and just hearing someone else
describe how I feel gave me the strength to go on.
This is the same now, if I’m sad, angry or happy I've got
the perfect thing in my collection to justify my mood and either bring me out
of it or sustain it.
Nothing can beat the feeling for me of getting a new cd and
sitting listening while reading the lyrics, or being at a gig and singing the
lyrics back of my favourite songs, or just putting on a classic and just letting
it overtake my body and breathe for me.
Music is the thing that’s been most constant in my life and
the thing I can rely upon and love so much. I know I wouldn't be here without
it.
So yes this is weird but I just wanted to say thanks to
music for being there and although no one knows what the future brings I know I’ll
always have it. It helps me be.
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